my god what does it mean to be crushed by your own self

im crushed for no fucking reason.

my ex lover has a girlfriend...how so fast, we were literally still speaking to each other less than a month ago.

was it me telling him what kind of an ass hole douche bag he was being to get him to realize that what i was saying is true?

what about me...i didnt even like him, it was strictly business, straight up sex. the fact that he can get a girlfriend...prob a vulnerable 1st year...makes me so sad. i was once that sad little first year...being swept off your feet by this older guy because youstill ahev the high school mentality in place where older guys are so cool blah blah blah

I was that girl, the poor girl who was so naive and idiotic! hes going to flirt with her and convince her that she is the only one for him tell her that he loves her makes her feel like a princess fuck her in one night and then dump her.

Fuck i hope he has changed and really does want comitment, but by the way he fucks...he's not...or maybe just not with me....

ouch.